Guilt.

If there is one thing I HATE about trying to lose weight/get in shape it is the guilt. The guilt after you miss a workout, or eat those delicious chips that were staring at you in the pantry. Why?! I have done pretty well.. I think at least! There are things I have cut out completely, and I am doing more than I have ever done in the past year.

Month 2!

Yesterday was day 1 of Month two of Insanity. I can already tell this month is going to kick my butt! The workouts are longer, and I'm using my body differently, so as usual I'm hurting today. Lat night was hard.. but I pushed through.. ok i fast forwarded through the last interval.  Sue me! I make the mistake of doing my workouts wayy to late, so I never sleep. 

New month, new challenges! I still am not following the diet plan completely, but have bought myself most of the menu items.. and plan to eat a lot better this month! I slacked of the last 2 weeks.. still did my workouts, but missed at least 2 days each week.. and the last week is recovery week so the workout is not at all as intense as the other ones. I have lost 10-12lbs so far! Why the variation? Because my scale likes to play tricks on me. This 2lb up and down crap is annoying. But I cant complain, especially because I'm gaining muscle and getting toned.. now if my mid section would start fitting into that category id be ecstatic! Thank you  post-pregnancy for the ever lasting doughnut chub.

 Im also excited to say that I have added 2 pair of jeans to my wardrobe.. that were packed away in my closet! Ahh.. feels good. Still got a pile to go through tho! One day at a time. 

I was Runnnninnn'.

Soo Back in the day I used to run cross country. NBD. But I'm pretty sure that if any of the avid cross country runners from my class heard me say that, they would slap me. Because honestly, I only did one race. Just 1.  It sucked. I didn't miss a workout though! I was in great shape, and could run a lot.
Nowadays.. not so much. I have always ran on and off, but never enough to build up good stamina and speed, or distance for that matter. I absolutely HATE pacing myself.  I would rather run as fast as the beat in my ears than barely lift my feet. I then realized I should have taken track instead of cross country.
I started my weight loss/get in shape/do something with my fat ass journey about a month ago.. and I ran the first day and I died. Last week I ran again and felt better than ever! I was so proud of myself!

I could have kept going.. honestly. But my goal was to run 2, since I'm doing Insanity during the day, and running at night. I am proud to say that I did not stop to catch my breath! Now the only trouble I'm having is with my feet.. I am pretty sure it is the shoes I'm wearing. Other than that I focused on pacing myself.. focused on breathing, and kept going! Of course I had my lovely playlist from Rock my run, I have two playlists downloaded, one is 30 min, the other 60. The music is on a loop so no switching songs! I downloaded the dubsweat and dubforce and love them! 

Hoping to see my time improve in the next couple of weeks, hoping to run a 5k at the end of this month! 

Hell Week.

This week is my 4Th week into Insanity.. Last week I missed 3 days. Bum knee :/ it sucks.. but id rather be able to do my workouts then struggle through them and injure myself more. My body is totally not used to pushing itself this hard.. this fast. But I am still feeling accomplished! So this week I need to push it extra hard. No slacking.

The hard part with working out and eating right is wanting instant gratification.. that's what has stopped me in the past. I have to keep reminding myself that It takes time, and hard work pays off! It does, right? (still doubtful sometimes.) 

I will have to say that I'm enjoying feeling better, the changes i've made have given me more energy and I feel stronger, so that's a plus. Since I missed 3 days last week I'm attempting to do 2 a days this week on my days off. Insanity during the day, and a run at night. Id like to see what my time is compared to when I started this journey... last time my feet hit the pavement I was barely making a 12 min mile.  Im most likely running a 5k the end of September!

I would love to post progress pictures.. but the ones I have taken are not flattering.. or im pant-less. Not a good look. So I will take a end of day 30 picture and then another one on the end of day 60! Only 42 days left. Holla!

Wake up in the morning and I ask myself...

I have been making some "changes" (Yes I just referenced 2pac .. if you didn't catch that, Google it.)  in my life and feel that my old blog is bad Karma for not completing future goals, Im sure you have read this most recent post and of course there was this one and then we have this lovely post that was clear back from 2009.. I thought I was going to start P90X.. then I got preggo and decided id post about it again a year later.Ill be honest and let you know that none of that happened. but I am starting week 3 of INSANITY!

   Id like you to picture me doing this and realize that I look EXACTLY like her. 

this shit sucks ass.. seriously. I want to punch myself in the face while doing it, and then shortly after..BUT that's why I am doing it. If I can complete this, I feel I can complete anything. I have Lost 7lbs so far.. and that's Pretty good for me only working out for the last 2 weeks, and I even skipped 2 days because I injured myself.. yes my groin does not like me. Yes there is such thing as a groin injury.
I have been counting calories with an app on my phone, so I input everything I eat. I also have sworn of soda and fast food. I do make exceptions though, if I am on the go and NEED to eat something, most fast food places do have low calorie options. I try to drink a lot of water and do not snack, unless its considered "healthy". This is pretty big for me, and I am not giving up this time. I want to blog about my progress, and this time I am serious!